#37

okay. i'm nervous. really. exams and others and i just hate it. a little escape:

#36

#35

exactly guys, yesterday was the 1^st of may. i think i am not the only one who was outside, and went to the margit-island, to the heros' square or to one of our beautiful parks; who ate a lots of candly-floss.

summer is almost here. can't wait. i felt yesterday like summer is here, and we are free. completely. but duh. nope.
 but there were a lots of great thing! i met new people, i made a few new friendship, i drank vodka... or nah. little kids i drank water! what's a vodka? oh-lá-lá.
 i really like margit-island. yapp, there were too many kids, but whatever. it was great! my friends are crazy. i won't tell any story about yesterday because you won't believe it!
 i was a lot of places, and i met so many people. i was at a concert, i sing a lot. now i haven't got any voice. great, but i don't regret it. our (party) life is started. not just mine. all of us is started living. now the weather is like in june. we're almost there! but first... (not let me take a selfie) we have to survive that incredible school. i'm afraid.
 the exams are almost here, too. i just. no. i wanna go everywhere with my friends, i wanna do stupid things. stupid exams, stupid school. i really don't wanna mess up. i hope i can make it. fingers crossed!
 and not just for me. for you guys! for everyone who thinks he will fail. for everyone who know he won't. we will get through this and we will enjoy our summer, because we deserve it!

#34

okay, i've never done something like that in a blog. so lets start it! this is my wish-list for may.

actually i'm a fan of converse shoes, but i started liking vans. they are pretty cool.

i know that everybody thinks that i'm not a fan of arctic monkeys i just want that t-shirt cuz blahblahblah. that not right! i love their music. it's sick guys! really good! check it or nah because you will be an obsessed little girl.
 to be honest i also need a red hot chili peppers, a ramones (i've got lot of ramones t-shirts but it never can be enough), a green day and a barney stinson t-shirt. yapp and that's just a few.

headphones. i always screw up my headphones. i don't know how. i just do. pretty annoying.

i need all of these...

...and these. i just love painting. :-)

summer is coming. i need shorts. i've got only three! that won't be enough.

i just wanna read it. maybe in english. or nah. i wanna read in english a lot of books. (f.e.: harry potter, shakespeare)

when i was little i saw once a movie when someone had a polaroid machine. since then i want one. it's beautiful. very expensive, but i love that. secret dream.

#33

it's been a long time that i wrote here. i don't know why. okay, probably because i'll have exams, and my life is... is totally crazy. it changed a lot. i wanna write everything to here, but i have no idea: it will be right?
 i don't want that you know me guys. not because i hate you. i love you. i love everyone in this stupid world, exepct... :D lol.
 first of all i'm still a hungry idiot. i love food. somethings never change. actually it's strange that i like salade now. what the fuck happened to me? maybe because i started to make some sport. not a big deal. i feel that i lose weight, but that stupid balance just show me more and more kg. what the damn hell?!
 the sport is not the only thing i've started. at the last 2 months i went a lots of party. i thought teenagers must not go to partying, but guys! that's kinda cool. more than cool. i feel like i'm alive. okay i'm not an alcoholic jerk. i don't wanna be. i admit that i drink, but not too much.

i've never been that drunk who can't remember what happened. no. i remember everything. that's funny actually. my new friends are crazy, but when they are drunk! that's awesome. i laugh so much at them. love them. they changed me and i like the person that i've become. not just for the party thing. i like that i become stronger, happier. and i've got amazayn friends. i think this summer will be legendary. can't wait.
 the school is almost over. i hate that fact. no i'm not crazy. i just... i will miss these guys. one of my besties will go to moscow and paris and she'll spend her all summer at there. and not just about her. everyone'll leave. and my birthday is coming. okay it's in july. the end of july, but... i'll be alone like always. i hate that. i wanna be with them.
 i hate that too that i'll have exams. french exams. i'm afraid. but i think about that: i have to do that and after that the hole summer will be here and i can relax... yepp. still can't wait.

#32

there is something about it. watch, watch!

#31

dear diary! i hate them. they judge me because i have feelings. but the sad thing is: i hate myself a lot better than them. i screwed up, and all of those shits vas happening... all of they are my mistake. i am the one who is fucking stupid. i am the one who is a jerk with the people who loves me.
 i am the one who alienated them.

#30

wow,
 that's finally friday. i missed you so much dear friday! but who didn't? right, that week was really weird. not bad, not good, just weird. i feel like i'm the only one who hasn't got a crush. but that's not too bad right? i mean everyone has in my school and all of them speak to me about it. it's a good thing, i love the way they trust me. but it's little bit humping for me. i have no one... it' weird.
 my half-year marks aren't so good. actually i've got one 4 and that's music... yap, this is humping too. but my mom doesn't upset, because in this year i will have a lot of exam. yap, i know: my mom is cool. i love her, too. :-) but i feel too this isn't good at all. i have to work harder. and i will. i promise. we've got 5 months till the exams. yay.
 when i walk on the school corridors all i can see: couples who are kissing. that's sad for me. i'm happy for them, really. but hallo? there are singles in this stupid school. oh damn...

oops, just kiddin'. actually i hate watermelon, but i'm in love with bacon, caco and potatoes.
 yesterday i opened my twitter and i checked the trends. what was there? oh yeah: valentinesdayscoming. thanks guys. thanks. we've got a lots of time for this. and what's the date today? oh yeah! it's fucking 17^th of january! january, people! is it just so hard to not share with anyone that we've got almost a month for this stupid thing?
 that's why i discussed with my friends that we will keep an anti-valentine's day. yap, that's will be great. i have no idea what will we do, or where. but i will be fun, because i will be with them. who needs a boyfriends? oh, well...

#29

one of my favorite "couples" is shamy (sheldon and amy) from the big bang theory. okay, they are weird. and maybe that's the best thing of them. they are such a cute couple. and the way how sheldon looks at amy is adorable. i want a guy who looks at me like this.

#28

well, today was totally suck. i hate that day.
 i will fail of geography, and maybe maths. great. and i've got another one... fuck. my mom is totally embrassing, and i'm so mad. i mad at everyone. i don't wanna do this anyomore. i've learnt so much today, and i will, too. but i'm so tired.

#27

#26

i can feel the spring. that's weird, but the spring is in the air! okay, maybe i hadn't to open the window. but that's great! spring is coming soon like heartbreaker was by justin bieber.
 i'm in my happy mood, finally. drawing - love moleskine -, listening music etc. i'm just feeling good. i don't have to learn so much for tomorrow, so i can be lazy. that's amazayn. :3 
 yesterday i was little bit angry. i still have no idea why. maybe because i didn't eat chocolate. yap, that's the reason... i don't know. but i feel so much better. yesterday, everytime when my mom asked me for doing something i was like: oh my gosh just shut up i'm trying to find the chocolate. okay i didn't say that, but she didn't know what's my problem so she just left.
 i was listening music. actually they are on now, too. i share with you.

• jay-z & justin timberlake - holy grail
• drake - hold on, we're going home
• lady gaga - applause
• katy perry & juicy j - dark horse
• luke bryan - that's my kind of night
• zedd & foxes - clarity
• phillip phillips - gone, gone, gone
• paramore - still into you
• ross copperman - holding on and letting go
• avicii - you make me
• awolnation - sail

that's just a little part of the list. yesterday was a musician day.
 today i will writing. yesterday i did, too. but i was in my bad mood, and i don't know it's good for the story or not. well, i'll watch it and then correct or not.
 still the one of the hottest quotes of marcus butler:

my name is marcus butler. remember it, because you will scream it later!

khm. if you know what i mean. he's hot and funny, the best pairing. love him, and all of the youtube crew. they're funny and lovely. for example: the harris guys, casper lee, troye sivan, tyler oakly, zoella, marcus butler, alfie deyes... i can go on, but there are so much names.
 i can't imagine my life without my fan things. actually what does the person who hasn't got favorite show, band or something like that. this is my life mostly. tweeting, blogging, youtube watching... and be a part of a fandom is really great. for example: directioners are my family. okay third family, but they are! if you aren't a part of something similar you can't understand.

#25

#24

me and my dude almost did it (video) after the last class today. we ere just so happy. we just wanted throw up our books, and sing that stupid song. not awkward at all.

#23

i'm so tired, so you too guys. so lets enjoy our weekend! we deserve it.