#33

it's been a long time that i wrote here. i don't know why. okay, probably because i'll have exams, and my life is... is totally crazy. it changed a lot. i wanna write everything to here, but i have no idea: it will be right?
 i don't want that you know me guys. not because i hate you. i love you. i love everyone in this stupid world, exepct... :D lol.
 first of all i'm still a hungry idiot. i love food. somethings never change. actually it's strange that i like salade now. what the fuck happened to me? maybe because i started to make some sport. not a big deal. i feel that i lose weight, but that stupid balance just show me more and more kg. what the damn hell?!
 the sport is not the only thing i've started. at the last 2 months i went a lots of party. i thought teenagers must not go to partying, but guys! that's kinda cool. more than cool. i feel like i'm alive. okay i'm not an alcoholic jerk. i don't wanna be. i admit that i drink, but not too much.

i've never been that drunk who can't remember what happened. no. i remember everything. that's funny actually. my new friends are crazy, but when they are drunk! that's awesome. i laugh so much at them. love them. they changed me and i like the person that i've become. not just for the party thing. i like that i become stronger, happier. and i've got amazayn friends. i think this summer will be legendary. can't wait.
 the school is almost over. i hate that fact. no i'm not crazy. i just... i will miss these guys. one of my besties will go to moscow and paris and she'll spend her all summer at there. and not just about her. everyone'll leave. and my birthday is coming. okay it's in july. the end of july, but... i'll be alone like always. i hate that. i wanna be with them.
 i hate that too that i'll have exams. french exams. i'm afraid. but i think about that: i have to do that and after that the hole summer will be here and i can relax... yepp. still can't wait.