#33

it's been a long time that i wrote here. i don't know why. okay, probably because i'll have exams, and my life is... is totally crazy. it changed a lot. i wanna write everything to here, but i have no idea: it will be right?
 i don't want that you know me guys. not because i hate you. i love you. i love everyone in this stupid world, exepct... :D lol.
 first of all i'm still a hungry idiot. i love food. somethings never change. actually it's strange that i like salade now. what the fuck happened to me? maybe because i started to make some sport. not a big deal. i feel that i lose weight, but that stupid balance just show me more and more kg. what the damn hell?!
 the sport is not the only thing i've started. at the last 2 months i went a lots of party. i thought teenagers must not go to partying, but guys! that's kinda cool. more than cool. i feel like i'm alive. okay i'm not an alcoholic jerk. i don't wanna be. i admit that i drink, but not too much.

i've never been that drunk who can't remember what happened. no. i remember everything. that's funny actually. my new friends are crazy, but when they are drunk! that's awesome. i laugh so much at them. love them. they changed me and i like the person that i've become. not just for the party thing. i like that i become stronger, happier. and i've got amazayn friends. i think this summer will be legendary. can't wait.
 the school is almost over. i hate that fact. no i'm not crazy. i just... i will miss these guys. one of my besties will go to moscow and paris and she'll spend her all summer at there. and not just about her. everyone'll leave. and my birthday is coming. okay it's in july. the end of july, but... i'll be alone like always. i hate that. i wanna be with them.
 i hate that too that i'll have exams. french exams. i'm afraid. but i think about that: i have to do that and after that the hole summer will be here and i can relax... yepp. still can't wait.

#15

that awkward moment when i want to sleep, and i must to sleep... and actually i can't.
 why? because of the lovely holiday. of course: i love it, but at that time i usually go to sleep at 3-4 am.
 so the last night was awfull. i went to the bed at 9 pm and i felt a sleep at 1 am. yap, and i woke up at 6 am. what a great sleepy time was that! ugh. but i know not i'm the only one. we screwed up our sleep-time, but whatever now.
 first day of the school in 2014. i thought it will be terrible. i was wrong. my friends missed me, too... the teachers were okay. (maybe tomorrow...) so my first day was better than i expected. i'm happy for that. i hope your day was ok, too.
 so there is a girl in our class. she's totally an annoying bitch. she's hurting and annoying everyone. we hate her, but she doesn't really notice... maybe because she doesn't care anyone else, just herself. hm. i hate the people who just care about himself. selfish bitches. i have no idea why i wrote about her. maybe because she was the only - okay almost - the worst thing in that day.

oh, fuck yourself, and your stupid...