#17

well, this day was good, too. (am i sick or what...) we had a lot of fun today. maybe the teachers didn't like these moments, but who gives a fuck?

but there was a moment, when i felt terrible. after me and my friend told that story what had to learnt my favorite teacher (yap, i got one) said to her: 'you were unsure, that's why she messed up'. i hate it. yap, i forget - one time - the next line, but hello? that's not her mistake! just because she didn't learn it as well as the others doesn't mean that's why i screwed up! oh come on...
 but the other times i was happy. maybe i annoyed one of my friends with my big happiness... that's how it goes. you feel happy? ok. the life comes, and give a punch in your face. just because you were so-so happy. she told me: 'calm down, why are you laughing all the time?'. i have no idea. maybe because i'm a dick, and that's how i wanna annoying you. argh.
 and that moment when the bitch of your class starts flirting with every boy. oh, hey miss perfection! go to the hell with your... but that was funny because the most of the boys didn't give a fuck about her. am i evil? i don't think so, 'cuz i am not the only one who's feeling that...

one of the awkward moments when the younger kids have a relationship, and you... just standing right there like: i'm in love with nutella. is it normal? i mean, is it normal if i haven't got anyone who... you know, i'd like. is it?
 i miss that what a relationship means: feelings, holding hands, kisses... i just miss it. but i won't play the bitchy one who go out with every boy, just because she misses it. that's pathetic.
 i'm tired all the time. it's a circulation: tired, school, tired, home, tired, sleep, tired, school... fuck that.
 okay, i've just said wrong things. so, here good ones: i laughed a lot. my friends are really crazy. and that song 'talk dirty to me' didn't help us... that's all i can say, because if  i say more, i will laugh and then a i'll can't stop it... here it is. sorry.