#22

it was a bad day, but there were happy things, too. like i went to a book shop with my friend. i love books so that's why we were inside more than one hour.
 well, i didn't buy any book, because i wait for the book. ever.
 but, i bought a moleskine. i wanted it so much. i don't know why, i just wanted. it's red. i'm so proud of myself. actually i have no idea why, because this is just a notebook... but this is a moleskine!
 i will draw and write all night. yapp.

#21

yap, that day was a 'little bit' bad. i met an old friend today, and she told me a lots of things. maybe i didn't have to do what i did. things what the other old 'friends' say about me. kind of bullshit. they lie about me, and that's... i'd say that i don't care, but that's not really true.
 one part of me cares about that shit. and the other part doesn't. the last one doesn't care, it feels it's an trap and it doesn't care about that people, it thinks they are fake friends. should i stop thinking about it? definitely. this is bullshit. but...

and that's it. i can't trust anyone? but i have to talk about my stupid things to someone! i must find the right person, or people. luckily they don't go to the same school, and i don't have to be their friend anymore. that's a happy thing about going to high school. you meet new people who don't care your old stuffs. i'm happy for that. a new classmate told me after i told him what happend today: 'ignore them, now we are your family. not them.' he was totally right.
 i don't care anymore their bullshit, or what they say about me. their problem. i'm gonna live my life without them.

#20

guys, i didn't remember that converse shoes are comfortable like that. i used to wear it, but it's an old story. nowadays i wore my boot. it wasn't bad, but my converse shoes... ahw, thanks gosh! i knew you love me!
 learning about the vestors in french... fine, it's not easy, but until today i've never learnt about vectors, so... lmao. my teacher talked about it, and it wasn't too hard. yap, in hungarian. but in french... god help me, because i don't know how will i learn it.
 today was the bitch's birthday. i told her 'happy b-day' and she was like: 'oh my gosh, i love you so-so much!'. what the fuck? bitch, i didn't save your life or something like that. just told ya something nice, specialy on your birthday. i can't follow this. how the... whatever. just not easy if there's someone embrassing.
 i talked about boys not too much. because i thought i didn't know anyone who... but that's not true. i know a boy who's really nice, and kind of hot, and he likes me. but there is a very big problem: my friend. i was the first who had feelings for him, but i didn't say it. months ago my friend told me she loves him. but the guy doesn't like her. i have no idea what should i do. i don't say if he'll ask me out i'll say yes. clearly i'd say no. why? because of my friend. she loves him, and i don't care what i feel, my friend is more important, than any boy.

actually i have no idea why did i write it. i likes him, but sometimes that's not enough for the fight. and i feel that: he doesn't worth it. not just because of my friend.
 i'm so nervous, because i have a kind of friend; it was a kind of dating... and i loved him. but we screwed up, the things are fucking damn between us. but i still feel like he's the one. and what if he's really the one, because of my lies? what if he's who i deserve? i'm sad of it. but sometimes i catch myself thinking about him. not in the romantic way. just thinking about him. like how is he looking today, or something like that.
 'i just decided being sad is a waste of my time.' yap, but if you feel it what should you do? you can't just switch off your feelings! (okay, you can but that's not good for you, and it doesn't work too much.) you can supress them, but you will feel it later. and that's wasting time.

#19

yeah, well i'm totally loser. i'm gonna sleep at 18:10 pm. but, i'm so tired, so i don't give a fuck. sorry for the expression.
 today was ok. i don't really get it why she had that feeling, but that's not my problem.
 good evening everyone! hope you'll enjoy it! :-)

#18

okay, everytime i write 'argh' i feel like i'm a fucking pirate.

#17

well, this day was good, too. (am i sick or what...) we had a lot of fun today. maybe the teachers didn't like these moments, but who gives a fuck?

but there was a moment, when i felt terrible. after me and my friend told that story what had to learnt my favorite teacher (yap, i got one) said to her: 'you were unsure, that's why she messed up'. i hate it. yap, i forget - one time - the next line, but hello? that's not her mistake! just because she didn't learn it as well as the others doesn't mean that's why i screwed up! oh come on...
 but the other times i was happy. maybe i annoyed one of my friends with my big happiness... that's how it goes. you feel happy? ok. the life comes, and give a punch in your face. just because you were so-so happy. she told me: 'calm down, why are you laughing all the time?'. i have no idea. maybe because i'm a dick, and that's how i wanna annoying you. argh.
 and that moment when the bitch of your class starts flirting with every boy. oh, hey miss perfection! go to the hell with your... but that was funny because the most of the boys didn't give a fuck about her. am i evil? i don't think so, 'cuz i am not the only one who's feeling that...

one of the awkward moments when the younger kids have a relationship, and you... just standing right there like: i'm in love with nutella. is it normal? i mean, is it normal if i haven't got anyone who... you know, i'd like. is it?
 i miss that what a relationship means: feelings, holding hands, kisses... i just miss it. but i won't play the bitchy one who go out with every boy, just because she misses it. that's pathetic.
 i'm tired all the time. it's a circulation: tired, school, tired, home, tired, sleep, tired, school... fuck that.
 okay, i've just said wrong things. so, here good ones: i laughed a lot. my friends are really crazy. and that song 'talk dirty to me' didn't help us... that's all i can say, because if  i say more, i will laugh and then a i'll can't stop it... here it is. sorry.

#16

something completely wrong with me...

#15

that awkward moment when i want to sleep, and i must to sleep... and actually i can't.
 why? because of the lovely holiday. of course: i love it, but at that time i usually go to sleep at 3-4 am.
 so the last night was awfull. i went to the bed at 9 pm and i felt a sleep at 1 am. yap, and i woke up at 6 am. what a great sleepy time was that! ugh. but i know not i'm the only one. we screwed up our sleep-time, but whatever now.
 first day of the school in 2014. i thought it will be terrible. i was wrong. my friends missed me, too... the teachers were okay. (maybe tomorrow...) so my first day was better than i expected. i'm happy for that. i hope your day was ok, too.
 so there is a girl in our class. she's totally an annoying bitch. she's hurting and annoying everyone. we hate her, but she doesn't really notice... maybe because she doesn't care anyone else, just herself. hm. i hate the people who just care about himself. selfish bitches. i have no idea why i wrote about her. maybe because she was the only - okay almost - the worst thing in that day.

oh, fuck yourself, and your stupid...

#14

i think... NO COMMENT, just enjoy the music.

#13

gosh i will suck on monday. i haven't learn, and i've got a lot of homerwork.  fuck. but i've got the perfect relationship now: my bed, my laptop, music, cacao and pizza. we're a big family...
 everytime i think about monday i feel two thing: i can't wait it (really? i said that?) and i hate it. i want it because i miss my friends so much. i didn't see them since last year - haha, what funny i am. i think i don't have to explain why i hate it. everybody hates monday, and they are crying because of it. maybe i'd have to do, too. but what will be better if i cry my heart out? exactly: nothing.
 but at least i'm not sad. not happy, but not sad and it's something.

 it's better. everything gonna be alright. just not now. i will write until the last day of the holiday. it helps. i don't know what should i feel. that's normal? or i'm gonna be crazy? definitely, i have no idea.
 i want restart the holiday. i'd do a lots of things in another way.
 actually i don't know what i want now. at the moment. who i need? why i want to wake up every morning? at the first time of my life i have no one who is in love with me. yeah, that's kind of bitchy, but that's true. and weird. or i just don't even know. i'm a bitch.
 but...

...so i don't care. i love my friends. and if i have to be with someone i will be. because everything happens with a reason, and i love everyone who loves me. except one person, who just says he loves me. or two... whatever. the thing is: if you love me, and you didn't give me a reason why i can hate you, i love you.
 thanks.

#12

I don't care what the others think. Miley Cyrus is a great singer, and i love her so much. Yeah nowdays her clip's are little bit bitchy, but her music is wonderful. Lots of love Miley!

#11

R.I.P. Margaret Tomlinson.

The world misses you. So sorry.

#10

tired teenager + bed = thanks god.

but i know i will look like him (ahw him, just wish to be so beautiful like him...) in the next morning:

#9

art is the best way to expression our feelings. or just really good fun. i love it.

#8